We like to pretend it is hard to follow our heart’s dreams. The truth is, it is difficult to avoid walking through the many doors that will open. Turn aside your dream and it will come back to you again and a second mysterious door will swing open. -Julia Cameron.
Yay. I am reading the Artist’s Way again! Written by Julia Cameron; it is one of my favorite books. I first heard about this book through my writer friend, Erasmo Guerra. We met at an office job I had way back during college years.He told me how much he liked the book and I purchased it in in May of 2004. I just realized that was ten years ago. It changed my life. Many times between college classes, work and unfortunately TV, I caught myself saying things like: “I want to take Salsa Lessons” (I think everyone says that one) or, I want to “try Yoga one day.” Even after reading this, that cooking class I have never taken comes to mind. Are you thinking it too? Maybe I don’t really want it; the cooking. Yet I wanted to go to the gym and according to me just didn’t have the time. I wanted to take belly dancing and didn’t know where. In NYC, where we have it all, I didn’t know where. I wanted to do all kinds of things like: Send off my headshots to an agency for Print work, go to the Bronx Botanical Garden for once in my life, meet up with my niece after a long time…it was such a long list. So many of the things were so simple. Where is that Orchid plant I have wanted for so many years?
All these readily accessible things seemed so far away. As if some weird higher power had the magic wand to make all this happen one day. Do not underestimate the power of saying “one day.” Was that one day after every single TV show ended and then…maybe I had the time? I allowed myself to finally turn off the TV (I was a bit addicted, especially to Survivor Island). After the first Survival Season there was another, so maybe after that one was over I would have the time. The show turned out to be very successful and went on for years. lol.
Time and so many other factors become excuses in our lives. Another excuse: Age. I mean, our age. In The Artist’s Way Julia points out a common question: “But do you know how old I will be by the time I learn to really play the piano/act/paint/write a decent play?” She answers: Yes, the same age you will be if you don’t. Like that one right? I did too.
A few weeks into the book I finally took the Yoga class I wanted to take at the gym that was right downstairs from my job; and became a regular. My lazy butt was no longer running to watch TV like my life depended on it. Oh how I wished for something like DVR and after it was invented I didn’t care for it. As a plus, the gym also had a belly dancing class titled Sharqui. I became a regular there too. A few blocks away from my job was Broadway Dance Center so I started attending classes there. Thought I was going to die in the House music class but hey, I did it!
After a few weeks into reading the book and completing the weekly tasks, I don’t even remember how I just stopped watching TV all together. I was living life instead of watching other people live. I sort of forgot I had one. Now I had reversed my activities. I no longer had time for TV and all my time to doing everything I enjoyed. I let cable go and eventually I didn’t own a TV for quite some time. All the times I made fun of Erasmo for not having one….I am going somewhere with this. Somewhere in here I will find a point.
We will discover the nature of our particular genius when we stop trying to conform to our own or to other peoples’ models, learn to be ourselves, and allow our natural channel to open. – Shakti Gawain.
That! What he said is my point. When I went back to my true nature during the course of the nine weeks as suggested in The Artists Way, I allowed myself to do things I have always wanted to do and had somewhere allowed to get lost in a pile of unfulfilling activities.
My love of Yoga began, belly dancing (Middle Eastern Dance), attending cultural events through out the city. I rented foreign films which is still one of my favorite hobbies.
Recently, I reflected on all these things as I opened up the book to freshen up. I couldn’t help but smile when I signed with a new fitting agency for modeling. One of those things I always wanted to do. Had I been to busy not to follow the lead, too busy with a bunch of nothing, then, the opportunity would have been lost.
Don’t get so lost that you completely lose sight of your heart’s desires. There is always time because your dream will come back to you again and again.
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